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It's been a while since I've known about this very blog in which you're reading, but for the longest time I never jumped at the chance to guest write. Maybe because I didn't know what to say, maybe because I was lazy and didn't want to put in the effort, or maybe, I was just scared to see what people would think of me. Kinda silly ain't it? I mean y'all (probably) don't even know who I am, yet there maybe some innate fear that people would judge me for the content that spew out here. But, if it is any good time, maybe now is the time to just let it ALL out, whatever is on my mind, to display some semblance of transparency, and give people a deeper look into my personal life. But let's not get too over dramatic here—life is hard, and it will always be. Don't expect me to whine, or moan, or complain about how sad my life is because, well, it really isn't that bad. Because, you see, I have a friend. And not just any friend, but a friend who has soared higher than any man has ever soared before (and no, I don't mean MJ). He's a king (Lebron James?), a God (Yeezy?), and was raised from the dead (oh, you mean Aslan?) Nah, I'm talking about Jesus Christ, the solid rock providing the foundation of my life in which I stand on, and the reason for which I live everyday; and daily I try in every way to emulate him to the best that God has enabled me to (though, the task is pretty much impossible, and I fail constantly). But by his grace, no matter what life entails, I trust that he will provide the strength necessary to endure all things. And I know one day I'll be raised up like Christ was—and as he was perfect all the days of his flesh, I will be like him also, perfected in his image! What a day we long for!
So anyways, this is my life, in as much as a nutshell I can make it...
Life this year has been bitter sweet up until this point. It was just a few months ago when I had received my raise and it's almost been a full year under a new job description, one that has dramatically changed the course of my standing within the company. I transitioned from something that I completely hated to something that I really enjoy—and to be honest I've really excelled. It makes a world of a difference to know that you are valued in your company, and that the desire for you to stay is matched by those who provide for your living. I also like to be active within my local church as well, serving wherever I can, trying to never complain about doing too much, as it is the privilege all Christians have, to take part in kingdom building work. And as in the words of Christ, “it is better to give than to receive.” So you might ask: well, why is it bitter sweet then? I have a good (and probably most important, secure) job, and I seem to have some supernatural force that keeps me moving forward. Why is it that it is hard to be content at a time like this? Well, good question. And to be honest, I don't know really if I can be honest. And I'm being completely honest here (okay, you get the point). But without disclosing everything let's just say I feel that there's something missing in my life, something that I want and desire and long for, but God has kept that door shut on me for now. Why? Well, I believe for a multitude of reasons. And even though I may have ample reason to vent my frustration towards him, I am always am humbled in remembering who it is that I'm talking to. I mean, this is the Creator of the universe right here you're upset at. He is the one who could take your life in an instant—every breath you take, it's a gift from him! He saved you from your sins! You ought to have perished in the depths of destruction, but he rescued you from pit of hell! Oh, what a Saviour we have in Jesus Christ! Oh, what a God that could love such a rebellious creature as myself. Sorry if I'm just rambling, but often I just pray these things to remind myself really of what an awesome God he is. Christian, indulge yourself in the grace of God and you will not be disappointed. And although I am still learning the art to such a task, I can say that he satisfies, if you seek him. He will give you the desires of your heart if you make him your delight. So, although I struggle with what I am 'missing', I don't ever let it weigh on me too much, because there is so much more to be thankful for than to complain about. And if you believe you know I am talking about, then, brother or sister, friend or acquaintance, remember patience is key. A virtue that is worth seeking for. The day will come when you will have your desire—which is a good one—and all good things are worth the wait. Don't ever rush into anything, or settle for less, because you deserve better. But you have to believe that first. I hope that this can be an encouragement to you, for those who are currently struggling as I am now, or just struggling in general.
Sorry, I never thought it would end up being this long, but kudos to you if you were able to the make it to the end of this. But enough about me...
I think I can speak for many people, Mr. Rodmond Tham (Mr. RtTheRealest, Mr. Psychospin himself), that many of us appreciate the things you write and resonate with the subject matter of your blog—that's why they keep coming back!–even if they won't admit it. So let this be a thank you, from all of your readers, for providing us unlimited access to, well, you. Again, thank you, for the entertaining, motivational, and even sometimes jaw-dropping moments that only could be experienced through your blog. And we hope for more moments to come (and more things we've never heard), to keep life just that more interesting. Peace
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